Scattered and splattered thoughts from a Gemini Moon
It’s the 12th of November 12.54am and I can’t for the life of me get back to sleep — we are approaching a Taurus full moon and full moons always keep me awake, alive and buzzing.
Right now, my brain has the zoomies, 50,000 tabs open in my brain, so many thoughts, ideas, questions, curiosities — the internal pen is writing, listening, thinking but it’s leaking thick black ink everywhere. I’m exhausted but I’m awake. Am I on planet earth? Maybe I am on planet Mars — the energy feels hot, heated, fierce and driven. My fingers tapping words into my smudgy lit up phone so fast, yet still it feels 1000 times slower than everything my brain wants to spit out.
This isn’t foreign land, it feels normal and to be honest I like it here…it reminds me I am a curious soul with a thirst of learning and asking alllll the questions.
It’s kind of fun
My Gemini moon placement consumes me sometimes — I find myself analysing, thinking all the thoughts and often at ungodly hours of the night — some tell me I am an overthinker, maybe they’re right, my imagination runs wild. My moon sits in the 12th house, and I often find through dreams my subconscious speaks words to me and sometimes this wakes me…. so here I am….pouring words from finger tip to phone.
Our moon sign is the energy that should nourish us, it feels like a mother figure, it waters us and warms our hearts like a hot chocolate on a cold winters night — that snuggly feeling of watching a chick flick while eating icecream and throwing back extra butter freshly popped popcorn. Our moon sign is the sign we lean into when we want to feel emotionally well.
So for me I feel my best self and emotionally nourished when…
I am curious
I am learning
I am writing
I can share my words
I feel heard
I am journaling.
..just to name a few.
But my Gemini moon placement is in the 12th House…it feels like discovering and uncovering the private thoughts and words from my life. It feels like secrets, a universal whisper. I find safety and sometimes fears in my mind but I want to let it all out, analyse and nourish myself through words. I have things to share. Things my soul wants to splurge into other curious souls’ hearts.
I find myself in the internal trap of questioning absolutely everything. But maybe this isn’t a trap, maybe it is a beautiful gift. The small young curious two-year-old me that needs answers and stimulation and through this she questions and learns.
Journaling is probably my closest friend, perhaps this sounds tragic, but for me I find deep comfort in it and I can’t think of anything more nourishing for my 12th house Gemini Moon.
Journaling and writing out my words feel deeply spiritual. It intertwines with a need to uncover, let go, and continuously explore the spiritual realms and their possibilities. It feels boundless, which can be both exhilarating and intimidating. With the ego detached from everything, I am constantly reminded that truly anything is possible.
If you have a placement in the 12th house, allow yourself to be seen, know you don’t need to hold it all in — speak loud to the Universe, tell her your worries. Jot the words into a journal. Uncover, discover, surrender, stop yourself from getting lost in the madness, the fear, the limitations. This can be a 12th house trap. Detach yourself from your ego, and see yourself through new lens, merging and flowing with life and it’s gorgeous boundless potentials.
As a Gemini moon, sometimes information I absorb can deplete me and becomes this mental stimulant I don’t need. A lot of mental chatter some may say. Here is a beautiful ray of light to remind you to not let everything consume you, take control of you. You hold the power.
Do things that spark your curious soul, find people that let you speak your words. Learn new skills. Write. Ponder. Question.
I am not sure what the point of this entry is, and it’s my first and it feels a little spicy, scattered and all over the show — much like my personal journal entries.
I created this medium page as I love to write, it nourishes me and fulfils me and other ways of sharing my words have felt a little stale and restrictive lately.
To be honest, I am just trusting this little intuitive nudge that’s telling me to ‘just go for it’ so here I am.
It’s been a longgggg time coming.
B x
